So, over the past couple of months, I’ve been in a funk. Several things have happened such as lost love, unwanted weight gain (thanks holiday dinners and lunches), crazy changes at work, etc. Basically, LIFE happened…ugh…
However, these past couple of months I didn’t just give up blogging; I gave up on some social time and such to focus on more important things. I have a career that is headed in a forward direction (YES!) but sometimes, I feel like I’m not good enough. I have learned that if I feel defeated, I’m not going to be motivated to push through. I pride myself in being a hard worker in everything that I do, but I’m easily defeated when I can’t get something right, don’t understand something, or can’t fix something.
So I took this time to focus on my flaws and learn how to self-motivate and push through those obstacles.
How did I do that?
1. I learned that I’m not God or Superman (whoever you choose).
I’m a problem solver; but, if I can’t solve something, I immediately become defeated. I realize that mainly with my job because it consists of nothing but problems for me to solve. However, I also realized that I am part of a larger team and have comrades, talented ones, that can help me. I used to be afraid to ask for help because I thought it was a sign of weakness, but now, I’m quick to ask a question if I don’t know. This has probably been the most important lesson I’ve ever learned. Seems slightly trivial, but it has made an impact on how I approach many situations.
2. Meditation helps…a lot.
I am a Christian – my faith is extremely important to me. So, my form of meditation typically takes the form of prayer and devotions. However, I’ve learned that simply being quiet within myself has helped me to focus. My brain is constantly on overload-mode and the time that I carve out to meditate is my brain’s way of saying “Thank you! I need a break for a bit!” My focus has improved, not exponentially, but more so than I thought it could.
3. Don’t be afraid to ask for help.
This kind of encompasses the last two, but has facilitated an eye-opening experience. I realize that I’m not going to be good at everything – as much as I’d like to be. As I mentioned a few lines before, I try to fix everything and when I can’t, I feel defeated – a direct hit to my motivation. I have a coworker that is like a data-God to me. I basically want to know whatever he knows and be able to do what he does when it comes to data analysis, management, etc. He’s so freakin’ smart; I’m just in awe of his talents. He has also become my unofficial mentor. I said to him one day, “I want to be like you.” He has been more than willing to help me out and I’m eternally grateful for that.
I’m a work in progress. I’m a scatterbrained-procrastinating-stubborn fool. I
can be am extremely hard to deal/work with and that hinders me from tapping into my potential. It’s already hard enough to get motivated let along stay motivated. However, I’m determined to keep it up. I’m going to have fails here and there, but that’s the beauty of it.
A different type of post from me today (don’t worry, fashion-y ones will be here soon), but it’s something that I wanted to write about. Also, sorry about the long-winded bit…we know how Dee does it =0)
Until next time…